Glitterbye

I have moved to here:

http://glitterbye-dece.blogspot.com/

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Lost 13lbs so far. Need to lose 9 more by July 1st to reach my goal. Have to take a break for a week though…stupid hormones. I will pick up next week!

Last week of the two classes I am taking then one more and I will have a shiny new associates and and extra 20 credits towards a bachelors.

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9lbs lost so far

I have been feeling exhausted and lame and lonely lately. I just need to finish out the last 3 UOP classes, get my associates and lay low for a while. My house is a mess as is my brain.

Some cute pics of wyatt to distract you from my tiny post.

I finished Uncle Tom’s Cabin today…A…MA…ZING.

The story was touching and heartwrenching and truely stood out in it’s time…and written by a woman no less! Seeing these things written in the 1800′s by women just make me feel empowered. These women were strong and independant and had sass…I commend them!

On another note, I took my half ambien last night and laid down at 10pm….after just laying there for hours I finally got up at about 1am and took the other half. About 30 minutes later I fell asleep. So I am a little tired today. Instead of coffee I went for a lavender tea, which was delicious.!

And so starts Day one of my “trying to break addictions” phase. I only took half an ambien last night..which of course afforded me only an hour or two of sleep. Then this morning I had ONE cup of coffee with ONE instant packet. Usually my coffees consist of 3 instant packets…and I have a couple of these a day. I feel a little run down but ok.

I have been on ambien for 4 years now. Just suddenly one day 4 years ago I lost the ability to fall asleep. I could be exhausted and barely functional but my brain refused to switch from exhausted twilight stage to actual sleep. After about a week of not sleeping I begged the dr for something and he gave me a prescription for ambien. One time when I wanted to stop taking it I just went without for a night…boy was THAT a mistake. I was awake all night then the next day I was SO irritable and out of it. I felt like every sound was a vibration…in short, I was going crazy. I cried myself to sleep at like 2pm and slept for hours. I was equally disoriented and angry when I woke up. That night I took my ambien and decided perhaps dosing down was best. I did that and got down to ¼ but something happened and I went back up. So now here I am trying again. Part of me feels it might be a bit pointless as I’m pretty sure whatever it was that initially caused my chemicals to be wacked probably has not bettered itself and that needs to be solved first, but even half is better.

The coffee addiction is a recent thing, it started when my ex got me a fancy new coffee maker and some beans in November and I was grinding my own super strong cups of coffee then downing 4 cups. 4 cups of my homemade coffee is =8 cups regular coffee. So this habit should be easy to break, I will drink more tea and maybe mix a decaf with my regular to have the stronger taste I like but with less caffeine.

Still have 2.5 hours left of work, lets hope I can make it!